Watching something completely unravel is maddening. We try to patch it up along the way, but another end breaks loose, and then another, and then another, until finally we just throw up our hands and say, “I can’t fix this!”
That’s our lives sometimes, in a nutshell, and that’s just about where King David is at this point in his life. I said about yesterday’s reading that his words reminded me of our man Job, and his words today continue along those lines. King David is at the end of his rope, and his rope is but a mere entangled disarrangement of bristly whatever-they-used-to-make-rope-out-of-back-then. He’s speechless, basically. Only he wasn’t or else we’d never be reading these words. But he says a couple different times, “I just have no words (vs. 1 and 9) because what can I say that hasn’t been said already?” Still, David doesn’t give up. He INSISTS that God listens to him. He says, “You may THINK all this will make me quiet, but I will NOT stop bugging you until you answer me and make me whole again! For what use am I like this???” If you weren’t fully convinced that God loves a good debate, I hope you are now. God loves when we talk to Him. He loves when we connect with Him on a personal level. He loves His one-on-one time with us. And did you ever stop to consider that sometimes He only gets it when we are at our lowest?
Sum it up:
I said to myself,
“Self, just shut up, and keep your head down.”
But what good will that do?
Then EVERY BAD PERSON will think they’ve won!
They’ll think God doesn’t exist.
“Lord, do you see what this is doing?
Do you see how it is not just hurting me?
It is hurting you, too!”
End this, PLEASE,
I am begging you,
So that I can be who you want me to be on Earth.”
Writing prompt: unraveled
Write about a time when you just couldn’t stop the train wreck that was happening in front of you.